What do I get a real kick / buzz from?
(In other words, when don’t I feel uncomfortable, which is so ‘normal’ it’s ‘regular’, and feel more relaxed and content)
Things that give my ADHD brain a boost:
Bright colours
Raised table. Legs hanging down.
Writing poetry - like an exhale
Samey, comfortable food
Being alone and knowing that I have time to myself
Hair on top of my head. Not rubbing against anything. Not in my way.
A few little wispy bits, but not irritatingly so!
Colourful, bold clothing. Bright patterns. Funny phrases.
Soft clothing, with labels cut out.
This may not be a neurodivergent thing. I don’t like doing up jackets or coats, especially as I’m walking. I get too hot and enjoy having ventilation.
However, I love feeling the breeze and cold wind, even, (sometimes) on me!
Sitting with crossed legs.
Massively appreciate beautiful hills, mountains, a lovely sky and clear blue water - smile internally over orange sunsets
..
Feel like the first time I can state many of these things is now. I didn’t want to appear ‘selfish’ or ‘picky’. Reacted badly to unexpected changes or situations I had imagined would be one way, that became something else.
Things I hate
Feeling overwhelmed and overstimulated.
Too many tabs open.
Not being able to work on the task I’m ‘supposed’ to be, as there’s a bright, new shiny task over there!
Life feeling like severe pressure on my head
Being viewed as ‘sensitive’ and finding cruelty, calculated nastiness and many world events hard to understand. I reflect
‘Why? Why would they do this’
Tension within me escalating when people are invasive into my personal life or personal space, when I don’t know them and don’t want them to be.
The texture of a thin rain jacket rubbing against my skin. In particular, if it is tight around around the wrists. Elasticated wrists, nasty texture.
Gross.
Having to compartmentalise different areas of my life. Not liking an overlap.
Whatever happens, if you are on a roll completing an activity DO NOT sit down!
If I’ve been busy, telling myself I will watch something online for half an hour and then get on with something else, never works.
I will convince myself I can do this though.
Not sure if it’s a neurodivergent thing.. tasting food after eating it.
Hate the feeling that I could have crumbs or residual food around my mouth after eating.
The feeling of never being ‘enough’, ‘messy’ or ‘imperfect’.
I talked a lot and felt no one listened to me - a trauma issue. Not sure I even listened to myself, truly.
However, it can be inferred that it’s my fault due to me being ‘hyper’ and ‘giving long
-winded responses’
The messages society can give
Always leaving things till the last minute - needing the rush and urgency.
Being perceived
Society is built for, and around, those that are not neurodivergent
….
Don’t like wires in bras
Don’t like pins
that claim they are angels
digging, spitting, downloading
divulging, hearts
……….. ………. ………. ………. ……….. ……
Something completely different I wrote (to the ADHD content above I mean):
misogyny, assault, r. e,
not all men they say, but it is men
Like a daddy long legs
Insidious
Holds his ground
But there are teams
Who feel the same way
Sharing
and there’s power in voices
You try to silence
When there’s an over population
Of the nothings
That you say we’ve never found
Like a daddy long legs
Insidious
You don’t need to use sticks
To infiltrate and twist
All that is vile about the universe
When there are so many voices
Why does society only listen to his
…
Tara star
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