mishmash contemplations
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I misbehaved and you didn’t
want to be there
and now I’m sorry, to a new you,
for anytime I’ve ever let you down
The bandit, who was outspoken
and brassy
I loop back and hide in fast forward
Reels take me back to empty
How dare I swing with my words
as well as my hair
I took Robbie’s Forbidden Roads
Second hand words
They said no
Shaking, I clenched
and saw it as a dare
I will prove you wrong
Now, I’ll never not care
Was my failure a mirage
Used, only, to control
Synthetic lighting stripped me
and I was no use
I never needed another excuse
For my brain to depart
I remember my frustration
‘Twas forever - and once
Comfort of a warming moment
Dreams of greater days
The connection
and what’s real, I feel
The moment that never gets old
Replaying the energies of your proof
Coming from insides
that back then, and forever, need warming
from the cold
I was a role play
From the soup.
Stuck. Hot hands clasping a mug of tea
I reached out for wagging tails
and relief
What you couldn’t bear
wasn’t manufactured me
He had all the softness, the falling fur
and the tender was crushed
when I gave momentary relief
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