Blue Monday

You tell me that’s what it is

Demand Avoidance

For ADHDers ‘blue’ Monday is a construct

and I’m not a fan

I get it

It’s cold and the world sometimes

feels like a scary place

This is forever

Why do you name one day?

I can be so positive

Dreaming, blind to negative possibilities

This is it

My world

I’m running it

How dare you kill the flow as

sparks fly from my hands?!

You try and make the curves straight

That’s the thing that strongly bites

The waves are there, to roll on

For the demand avoidant, I’m surfing

You imply I should have a sad day

I won’t break down even when I feel

I need someone holding my hand!

Today, I’ll put in a sad day ban

and let ‘regular, flowing, moving’

Take me over - and park

You tell me Blue Monday and I think music

I got on the wrong bus today

and I’m still writing this

Today, can it really do any harm?!

You telling me these will be melancholy moments

Makes me feel fire

Not ice*

(With shame if it was an individual ‘telling me’ not to enjoy any aspect of it!) I’ve bathed in melancholy

and it’s dipped me in ink

That’s how much I don’t like doing anything on demand!

I look at the sky

Orange pinky fusions

Purple is where it starts

orangey sky

Writer on trauma and ADHD:

tarastar.substack.com

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I read something the other day about a writer doing their best editing just after they hit post!

I originally posted this on Instagram and I couldn’t relate more!!

purple and orange beanie hat

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Poem - thoughts - my voice